Sunday, October 31, 2004

devil's back!

after the looooooonnnnnnggg calm,here's the storm. well,lots of changes have been happening since the last blog and yet,nothing has really changed. confused? let me puzzle u further:) significant events after that blog b4 bro's engagement have been bro's engagement, getting a foothold in work and then, experiencing the pain of neglect, the successful completion of a year at work and earning the tag of "experienced associate"(have a gut feeling that is pretty significant but havent yet figured out the real significance of it), big b relocating to india, change of office caterers calculated to starve employees to death, getting rid of my hypocritic manager(oh! that disgusting man!) by his moving onto another project(one of the happiest moments of my life) and the conclusion of a year-and-a-half saga of uncertainities and assumptions on the marriage alliance front. yes, urs truly is back on the eligible spinster bandwagon and her search for the elusive mr.right continues:) learnt along the way through all the events at work and in the social scene that u cant always get what u wish for in life but check out what u've got, it probably wud suit u better than what u, in the first place,assumed wud. and another important lesson i'm trying to master after 22 years of refusal to believe in it is this: u cant make all the people happy all the time. the kid in me still doesnt wanna grow up and accept this but hey,world, i am making a sincere effort this time round to learn this lesson.
am slowly sinking into the stupor, monotony and melancholy of a working woman's life but i wonder how long it will last. i hope my spirit regains its spirit and fights back(what a cliched expression). i hope from my current mindset of being an also-ran(which i definitely know i'm not), i get back my spirit to become an achiever-an achiever not by anyone else's standards but by mine alone and if the world agrees with my benchmarks, thats an icing on the cake! wow, thats pretty encouraging, devil, read this repeatedly and in time, u shud b outta ur current stupid numbness of mind:) and hey, am eagerly awaiting my diwali vacation. going home after almost a year! hope it turns out well. hmm...after the exhaustive and tiresome lakshya session(the annual exercise of getting goals for the company) the whole of this sunday, i guess my blog isnt as cheerful as it cud b. anyway, happy diwali, ciao and...."i'll be back" terminator style!:))

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