friends and life

hey,long time since i last thot aloud! hmm...lots to say yet nothing to say. today is friendship day. looking back, have a huge database of friends to be proud of but then, how many of them r the true intimate relationships that friendship is really meant to be? in most cases, maybe i have driven people away by being too possessive. in some, i've been the one to run away from commitment. in a lot of them, the intimacy isnt two-way. or maybe i expect too much. and things only seem to get worse. maybe the more i lose, the more i'm afraid to lose. well, chill...no point complicating life by thinking too much. the best consolation in most cases is "no man is worth ur tears and the one who is, wont make u cry". cute thot,huh?! :)

recently, a true friend and brother gave me some food for thought..."its better to be smart/buddhisaali than good(or wat do i call it?)/chamathu in some situations". been thinking about it-interesting and true. y else wud ppl change to being smart rather than remaining good which they r right from birth? well,grow up, gayatri, accept it. and try to be smart, not oversmart :) and i promised this friend-cum-anna that i wont cry. well, thats a goal to strive for. and i think i can do it. after all, i was the strong mature good gal at one point of time-wen was that? 3 years ago...well, not a problem. just have to get into that mindset again though the situation is now different. in fact, am probably at a better situation now. so, enjoy life,gays, u have nothing to lose now.
whew! thats a loooooonnng blog post. and still lotsa news to talk about-bro's engagement, my so-called trial of diplomacy, boss's hypocrisy and stuff. but rest in next. happy friendship day! hope a 'laughlady' thinks aloud next time rather than this crybaby :) hakuna matata!!:))