harsh reality of life

ok,blogger pal,this blog is gonna b a serious one. so, b prepared... u know,getting into development work has had its share of ups and downs for me. the upside is that after a long,bitter struggle with my project manager, i've finally been assigned development work(though its only bug fixes and enhancements,yet its good work) and that too in c++,a language i love! cudnt have asked for anything better! the downside is that i took the handover from a guy who has had abt 4-5 yrs of cpp experience and the code he's developed is really good! takes a bit of time to grasp and now that i'm alone,sometimes it gets a bit taxing when i have some kind of a clarification or doubt and there's no one around to turn to. anyway, thats also an experience to learn from. so far so good. sometimes, u know, when i get really cranky and get the thing i call "bored sadness", the best tonic is to travel by the ptc(public transport corporation) bus-esp. the one that travels from my place to the library. it teaches me how fortunate i am to have a job and to have a job with a company which provides safe transport facilities for its employees. apart from that is the cool,secure working environment it provides and the decent food. and a lot more that i have to be thankful for. yet, there is always the nagging thot that i'm not even blessed to enjoy the money that i earn. i cant even visit the library leisurely, read a good book or develop a new hobby. am not even able to retain the existing hobbies! the one free day i get is a sunday and all i feel like doing on that day is eat and sleep. homemade food feels like a long-awaited blessing nowadays. lost touch with many friends. at the end of the day, after all the stressful work, i end up thinking,"is it really worth all the trouble?" probably, the past 4 to 5 generations have been brought up with the mentality,"work hard, earn, save for a rainy day" only recently have people started spending more money. the standard of living has improved but the quality of life has degraded. half of those who earn do not get the time to spend it(like me) and the other half do not spend it wisely. we are quickly losing our image as a richly cultured, civilized and decent society. God knows where all this is going to end!
hey,hey,hey,thus spake the old lady! see? i'm not even married and i've already grown old. anyway,whew! thats too serious a blog for a day. bro's engagement next weekend. so, will write later. enjoy! hakuna matata!:)

brother's engagement

hi,bloggie boy!g3 the devil's back with news and her views of the same. 1st things 1st, know wat, my brother's getting engaged!!!yup, he's chosen his soulmate,his partner for this lifetime. anu's a sweet gal, i'm sure they'll b happy together:)the engagement is on aug 22nd-pity i cant make it to both kannammai's and amirtha's wedding,both of which, i was counting on attending. anyway, thats life-full of surprises!well,lots of mails,phone calls,conversations around-its a once-in-a-lifetime occasion after all!with the One Above watching and taking care of everything, i know v neednt worry. so,thats the BIG news!:)hmm...not actually in the mood to blog. so, i guess some other time. bye,pal!

friends and life

hey,long time since i last thot aloud! hmm...lots to say yet nothing to say. today is friendship day. looking back, have a huge database of friends to be proud of but then, how many of them r the true intimate relationships that friendship is really meant to be? in most cases, maybe i have driven people away by being too possessive. in some, i've been the one to run away from commitment. in a lot of them, the intimacy isnt two-way. or maybe i expect too much. and things only seem to get worse. maybe the more i lose, the more i'm afraid to lose. well, chill...no point complicating life by thinking too much. the best consolation in most cases is "no man is worth ur tears and the one who is, wont make u cry". cute thot,huh?! :)

recently, a true friend and brother gave me some food for thought..."its better to be smart/buddhisaali than good(or wat do i call it?)/chamathu in some situations". been thinking about it-interesting and true. y else wud ppl change to being smart rather than remaining good which they r right from birth? well,grow up, gayatri, accept it. and try to be smart, not oversmart :) and i promised this friend-cum-anna that i wont cry. well, thats a goal to strive for. and i think i can do it. after all, i was the strong mature good gal at one point of time-wen was that? 3 years ago...well, not a problem. just have to get into that mindset again though the situation is now different. in fact, am probably at a better situation now. so, enjoy life,gays, u have nothing to lose now.
whew! thats a loooooonnng blog post. and still lotsa news to talk about-bro's engagement, my so-called trial of diplomacy, boss's hypocrisy and stuff. but rest in next. happy friendship day! hope a 'laughlady' thinks aloud next time rather than this crybaby :) hakuna matata!!:))